Young Ebony Rose ORG!

I remember the day I started to feel Alone. It was the moment in my Life where no one understand me. and even when I wanted them to understand they couldnt. I was the only one who Understand. I was the only one who felt what I felt.While every one was living their life. I was the only one Who felt it. Thats when I started to Feel like it was jus Me myself and I. Sometimes I look in the mirror and i feel so disghusted with my myself. I feel all ugly and I hate it. then when im talking to my friends ill brag about how pretty i am and thats not how i really feel. If it wasnt for the boys i knew and random boys complimenting my looks everyday.I think my feeling of ugly would be with me all the time. But you know whats really makes me feel really ugly. when a really cute boy dosent notice me like all the ugly boys do. When that happens I immediately start thinking is their sumthing wrong with me am i not pretty enuff for him. and do he not think im pretty. I also get that feeling arround spanish boys. but i just think they dont find any african american girl pretty. but its weird cuz i find sum spanish boy attractives but i kno they dont find me attractive. then i get that feeling of ugly again. But maybe im not as pretty as the ugly boys and the ok boys make it seems. Then that. I dont know why I dont give ugly boys a chance and their so sweet. And plus They are for real. and llooks shouldnt matter. But I just cant seem to talk to them. Maybe im jus a bitch. Or just like boys who arent so kind and ugly. But i think love also has a sense of pride. like when i show people my boyfriend i want gurls to envy me because of him wish they had him. not laugh at him. But i shoudnt care what other people like i should care what i like. But who the hell is like that anymore.Theres too much crictics now a days to  not care what people like.But Im Fake. And i know Im Fake. not Fake as in backstabbing. but Fake like this is not me. Sometimes when I am arround certain people im seem like im dumb you know i act stoopid. but im really smart. Then when im arround other people I act all quiet like im this quiets person. But im really loud and talkative. Then i do this weird thing where i will hear or see something cool. then when im arroud someone else i would do that specific thing i hurd or see sumone do. and act like i did it like i said it. I think i just wanna be different. but since everyone else wants to be different also. We jus all end up doing the same

I remember when i use to love  love

now got two fingers up saying fuck love

I remember when i use to love  love

now got two fingers up saying fuck love

i remember when i use to talk about you

He’s That Hes This all about you

Every minute every second I would Text you

like Hey boo I miss you what doing after school

like Lol Omg I think I love you and i cant wait to see you

now I hate when Someone even Mention You

acknowledge you say hi to you bye to you talk to you

i use care for you i was there for you

now it makes me sick to my stomach when i  think of you

see my friends seen the damage you could do

i just wish I saw it too read the hint like blue clues

To help me prepare for the bad news

now all do is cry because of you

you the reason why evrytime cupid come arround i duck

why i think evry nigga just tryna fuck

the reason i consider myself a smut

why i got two middle fingers up saying fuck love(X2)

Last night I had a Dream Then i woke up to Reality

And everything is just how it seems

And on the Other Side

The grass was jus as Green

And nothing like how you made it seems

Nah mean

and im not as pretty as you made it seems

just another Lie to get you in my jeans

and im mad at myself for making you suceed

and im mad at my self for carrying your seed

just another Baster Child in the Black society Breed

Should of Known i Coudnt Coming knocking at your door

See i knew im not no billie jean

You took you out in deep Blue sea

Where emotions ran deep

So you can get in deep

you the reason why evrytime cupid come arround i duck

why i think evry nigga just tryna fuck

the reason i consider myself a smut

why i got two middle fingers up saying fuck love(X2)

Sunshine turn into night spot light to day light

you turned my love into lies

even made it seems like you were the perfect guy

but you was just an impefect lie

an off beat lullabye

east to love you hard to tell ya bye

we was suppo2 fly you know sky high

now i feel like im 10 feet under no lie

every times love comes by or some one mention my love life

i start feeling all sad and blue

and its because of you

My heart beat is chopped and screwd

just knew it was too good to be true

you let me Drown in my own tears

See i knew you nevah Care

But instead of saying that you just told me what i wanted hear

now i put a defense up on every nigga that come near

you the reason why evrytime cupid come arround i duck

why i think evry nigga just tryna fuck

the reason i consider myself a smut

why i got two middle fingers up saying fuck love(X2)

I remember when i use to love  love

now got two fingers up saying fuck love

I remember when i use to love  love

now got two fingers up saying fuck love

why i got two middle fingers up saying fuck love(X2)

What ever happen to the angels in the sky

What ever happen to the angel in disguise

what ever happen to the 3 angels by mah side

Sometimes I cross my heart and hope to die

Cant beleive Jesus Died

on the cross just So i can live this horrible life

Cant beleive God listening to My Cries

Still Aint Save me from this Life

still Allowing Death To take its Time

Sometimes I cry when i open my eyes

and see the sunshine

to know its another fuck up day in my fucked up life

and everything little thing will never be alright

nah I don’t have to be Jamaican to realize

that’s just another beautiful lie

I remember when I use to love life

now all i care about is what the next nigga got on the cyph

Sometimes I wake up feeling Like Shit

Fill My glass to the tip

Take a Couple of sips

Roll My Grape Blunt Vill

Take a couple of hits

Sit back Relapse till i cant feel shit

See I knew one day the Sun wont shine

And Love Wont Be by My Side

The Rain Would turn into a Hurricane

Things Will nevah Change

Its Like ive been Running For Hours And this is how Far I came

My like is Like Falling Twin Tours cant keep from going insane

Man im stuck in The Fast Lane

Heading For Struggle and Pain

Blaming My mom every single day For why im this way

Blaming My life For why im heading this way

My whole life is like dirty stain

no matter how many tears i cry

I could nevah wash it away

And Sucide is only My Escape

and waiting to be save by the nigga with cape

then he come jus a little too late

and im forever stuck in this range

im Forever stuck in the rain

And sorry For the Kid who think life is as sweet as a sugar cane

Sometimes I wake up feeling Like Shit

Fill My glass to the tip

Take a Couple of sips

Roll My Grape Blunt Vill

Take a couple of hits

Sit back Relapse till i cant feel shit

See I knew one day the Sun wont shine

And Love Wont Be by My Side

Rain Would turn into a Hurricane

Things Will nevah Change

only God know how hard I try

To Maintain This silly Disguise

But this is Me suprise

Just Another lost Mind

Who Grew up In World so Unkind

who so Scard Of A Goodbye

So i avoided evry Hello hey and hi

To Avoid any Future farewell sign

See i knew one day i would have to pay the fine

one day karma would catch up to mah behind

Seen the Sign But I Pretended to be blind

Seen the REd light But i continued to grind

Now im so ashame to look anyone in the eyes

And When they dim lights

You know when Day lights turn to Dark nights

Evrything comes clears to sight

This is my shitty old fucked up life

Sometimes I wake up feeling Like Shit

Fill My glass to the tip

Take a Couple of sips

Roll My Grape Blunt Vill

Take a couple of hits

Sit back Relapse till i cant feel shit

See I knew one day the Sun wont shine

And Love Wont Be by My Side

Rain Would turn into a Hurricane

Things Will nevah Change